I'M NOT WELL

The shit-stained grins of Ennui and Malaise chewed on my neck until I collapsed. I must have hit my head because the next thing I knew, I was lying in a hospital bed with all sorts of tubes sticking out of me. They weren't connected up to any of my veins or their machines, they were just sticking out of holes they had dug in my chest, legs and arms, with the other ends just floating in the air like an orange in an anti-gravity chamber. There was however a saline drip going. Again not connected up to me, just saline solution dripping through the ceiling in the corner. There was only one logical confusion: we were beneath the sea and a crack was just developing in the sea-bed. Without any thought for my own personal safety, I jumped out of bed and ran round to everyone else in the ward shaking them awake to warn them of the danger, and pronouncing two of them dead. As if only to embarrass me, one of them made a complete recovery moments later, but a 50% diagnosis rate for someone who is not a doctor, is not bad. Perhaps that's the best way to ease the pressure, both in economic terms, and in terms of the lack of doctors, on the health services of all our countries. Forget spending vast quantities of time and money on training doctors, and instead go with the 50% diagnosis rates of the good ol' common man on the street. A few costly lawsuits aside - which can be budgeted for, no worries - we can have the kind of health service that so many people are striving for. (Arf arf).

Anyway, time to stop looking out for everybody, and instead to be selfish again. I must have looked quite a sight, running around a hospital ward, naked except for with meaningless tubes sticking out of me, screaming that the sea was caving in and that we would all drown if we didn't get out of there. To calm me down I was taken and shown some pictures. They weren't the most relaxing of pictures, but the brushwork was fantastic. Pictures of brutal axe murders and people having sex with animals aren't the most soothing thing to look at if you think the sea is about to fall on you and kill you. Credit where credit is due, however: that Rorschach is one hell of an artist. (An easy, old joke, I know, but I've had a trying weekend, and provided this doesn't all turn out to be a dream, I think you can forgive me one moment of weakness). Upon returning to the ward, the saline drip had stopped, and a new set of people were in the beds. I know I would be too scared to stay in a room if I had almost drowned there less than an hour ago. ...In fact I was too scared to stay there. I tried telling them I didn't want to stay there, but they wouldn't listen to me, or they couldn't hear me. I struggled to get out but they just tightened their grips on me and put me in a different bed. It was the bed where the dead man had been; I suppose no-one else had wanted it, and as they couldn't hear me, I couldn't complain. Oh well, what's wrong with lying in a dead man's bed? It's not as if I hadn't done it before, both for pleasure and profit.

As in all the best films, I needed a way out of there. When everyone was asleep I began to dig a tunnel under my bed. I dug all night and slept all day, hiding the dirt by eating it. It's lucky for me that security was so lax that they didn't even check my shit: I was still excreting lino weeks after I'd gone past it. (Even to this day, I'll shit a plastic turd at least once a month). After six weeks of digging I had reached a depth of about two metres; not enough to escape through, but enough to hide in. They searched all over for me once I went to ground, never to be seen again. After a couple of hours they let me be, and gave my bed to another anonymous person. I had forgotten to factor food into my equation; I could go in eating dirt, but it wouldn't be quite nutritious enough without a couple of worms for protein. Luckily another lapse in security proved to be the answer: I had never noticed before, but they seemed to leave a plate of food on the floor every meal time, right by my hole. I don't know who must have gone without when I stole it, but I can only hope that either a different person went without each day, or when one person wasn't being fed day after day, that they provided an extra meal for him or her. I would hate to feel that another person died just because I needed food.

Three weeks after taking to my hole, I needed a more permanent way out of there. I killed a nurse, and wore her uniform as I hid in a laundry basket. Freedom was mine. (Actually, the truth of the matter is that after three weeks of living in my hole, a doctor popped his head under the bed, splattering me with his brains. This brought me to the attention of the other doctors who said I was free to go any time I wanted. Another eight weeks later I left for my previous attempt at life).